“I am happy to continue with my journey through time.” – Mary, Crown Princess of Denmark
In three weeks I will turn 20 years old! Yes, I realize, I am not a grown adult, in fact, many still consider 20 years to be a kid. Not only that, but I look pretty young for my age. I have had people think that I am still in high school, though I am actually entering my Junior year of college. But hey! I embrace my youth, because when I’m older.. well.. lets just say, my chances of still looking good is pretty high! 🙂
I know… turning 20 isn’t as exiting as turning 21. But, since I don’t drink alcohol or go clubbing, and since I’m not planning on it, turning 20 is a little monumental for me. Mmm… monumental isn’t exactly the word I’m looking for, but lets just say that it means something.
For me, turning twenty is another turn in the page of my book, called life. It signifies a new chapter, technically speaking, no longer being a teenager. Transitioning into a single and satisfied young women.
Question is, am I really single and satisfied? Hah! Single, yes. Satisfied? No. It’s okay to laugh.. I would laugh too! And just for the record, I like to say that I am not single, I am no taken, but I am reserved! And when the right guy comes along, I will know.
Though I am single, I am not satisfied. For me, it takes a lot to admit that, because I am young.. I am a full-time college student who works, and barley makes time for her social and religious life too. So, in my head, the logical thing would be to focus on those things rather than the fact that I am single.
I am single. And not very happy. Don’t get me wrong, I am happy about my family and friends, my job and educational life… but my love life is lacking and I’m not very happy about that. So what am I going to do about that exactly? Well.. not what you think. I am not going to ask my friends to set me up on a blind date, I’m not going to ask the cute guy out at the gym and I’m not about to join Christian Mingle.com . My goal is to actually become… single and satisfied.
I believe that it is necessary for us to embrace who we are as individuals, where we we are in life. It does not mean that we can’t strive to do better and to be better, but the best way to move forward is to embrace where you are. Embracing where you are is simply having an appreciation for who you are, where you are, and what you have in your life, right now. It’s about finding something positive in every negative situation. Including being single. I mean… some people really are single and happy. Then there are people like me… that aren’t so satisfied.
Being satisfied is being okay with the way things are, without yearning for a quick fix. When I am single and satisfied, it won’t be such a torture, whenever I see a happy couple showing public displays of affection. Instead, I will be okay with what I a have, and truly feel like it is enough.
Being in a relationship isn’t everything. Especially when I have friends and family around me who really do care about my well-being. Not only that, but I am blessed to have a future to look forward to. And, although I am extremely anxious to meet the guy that will join me in my future, it isn’t everything..
So, the goal is set. It will take time. But, I will not bury myself within my school and work just to take my mind off of my other desire… to be taken.. Wait! Did I really just write that? Indeed. Okay, okay… So I don’t want to be single forever. I just know that I am in a place where I have a lot going on and need to stay focused on what is most important. Knowing that when the right time comes along.. I will meet that special someone. Until then, I must be single and satisfied.