“I don’t know what the future holds. Anything is possible.” – Liz Phair
As I sit here in Gainesville Regional Airport waiting on a delayed flight to Atlanta, I am thinking of… yes, you guessed it! Him! If you read my last blog, then you know exactly who I am referring to. I refer to the guy as “him” because at the time, I did not know his name. That has changed. A few days a go, a friend of mine who knows him as well, found out what has name is. We were texting a few days ago, when I happened to ask a question… And that question led to an answer to the question that I was not brave enough to ask. I mean, I didn’t mention him at all, but there the answer came. And let me tell you, just learning what his name was gave me butterflies all over again!
The crazy thing is, he’s the kind of guy, I never would’ve thought I would go for. I mean, he is young, handsome and not perfect. I don’t know him at all, but I can tell that he has a kind heart and a great personality. What I can tell about him from afar, makes my heart flutter. And that makes me soo anxious to get to know him. Will that opportunity ever come? I have no idea. The old me would say forget it, and not even think positive. But, I’m not that person anymore, thank God. Instead, I’m just going to remain optimistic about the whole thing. If it’s meant for me, then nobody can take it away.
Sometimes, I feel like my love life is not something that God is concerned about, at all. Like, it’s not something important enough to pray about, let alone trust in God to do something positive in. I realize that is my own insecurity talking. But, there are some of us girls who haven’t had a luscious, over-flowing love life. Thankfully, I have enough experience to know what I want in a man, I know what it feels like to have a broken heart, and I have the faith to know that God can mend a broken heart and give you something better later on. If I hadn’t had the experiences that I went through, then I wouldn’t be where I am today. I would not have this state of mind; that with God, absolutely anything is possible!
Absolutely anything is possible, if you trust in God. I have to have this state of mind, because I would be depressed otherwise. As I mentioned before, I have never been the girl that had a lot of boyfriends, let alone guy-friends. Shoot! I never had a lot of friends when I younger in the first place. Because of that, I have struggled with low self-esteem, confidence and body image. So you can see why it’d be a challenge for me to think positive when it comes to my love life. I know some of you can relate to this too.
The obstacle I am currently trying to overcome is trusting God with my love life. It’s not as difficult for me to trust God with my health, finances, transportation, education and family.. But my love life prospering… Now that is something I have dreamed of since I was about 11 years old. I was the definition of boy crazy when I was younger, only it never went anywhere. I simply had crushes, one right after the other. Never got to talk to them. Never got to exchange phone numbers, pass notes, or go on a lil date. Nothing. Sad but true. So, my love life being more than it’s ever been is quite the dream. It seems impossible. Yet, I am choosing to think positive.
Matthew 19:26 says, “But Jesus beheld them, and said unto them, With men this is impossible; but with God all things are possible.”
I know all things are possible, because God has worked so many negative situations out in my life when there was no where else to turn and nobody else that I could depend on. He made ways when there wasn’t any. So looking forward to the future… I see my love life prospering. Whether it’s “him” or not, I’ll just have to wait and see. Well, I did say that I would write a blog with an update if anything interesting happens with this, so I guess I should say, we
will just have to wait and see. Who knows!? Maybe, this will be a miracle just waiting to happen. Maybe not. But whatever the outcome, I know it’s possible. I am trusting God that someday, I will meet my handsome prince. Although.. it would be nice if it was “him,” because I love when it’s a guy who I never thought I’d pay any attention to, who ends up being the guy that is attracting my attention.. I’m keeping my fingers crossed, hoping for the best.
Thanks for reading my boy crazy ramble. If you didn’t get anything out of this, just remember that absolutely anything can happen. If you just believe. It’s a cliche, but true!