“Somewhere, something incredible is waiting to be known.” – Carl Sagan
Slowly, I can feel myself slipping back into my old mindset.. Today, I saw him again. Nothing happened. But, there’s still a chance that something will. I choose to remain optimistic. It’s difficult.. Really, really difficult. On the surface, I just want to go ahead and give up. Sometimes, I feel as if I will be alone forever. I could talk my self in circles, about how God is the only man I need.. That is real truth right there, but I cannot deny this longing… This burden.. These feelings I can’t shake. It must be for a reason. I’m guessing that why, this is the hardest, most difficult-challenging season. I know, I used three adjectives, that all mean the same thing. But, that’s just how intense my emotions are stirring.
I have no choice but to lay low, wait and see what happens. All week long, I have to fight against every single negative thought that comes to torment my mind. Which happens almost every 3 minuets or so. Yeah, I got it that bad. But it’s still all good. I am looking “unto the hills from whence cometh my help, my help cometh from the Lord, which made heaven and earth.” I am going to sit back, relax and just flat out chill in the word of God. Knowing that when this season comes to an end.. my blessing is already on it’s way.
Today, I let go of the past. I broke free of some things I’ve been struggling with for a long time. That’s progress right there. I believe that God is taking me through this, to put me in the right place, so that I can be ready to receive the blessing when it’s time. Well, let me rephrase that.. So that I can be ready to receive my blessing when it is time. The first step was letting go of all road blocks, aka, sin. This week, my goal is a spiritual goal.. To work on me. Not to worry about all my problems, but to focus on getting where I’m suppose to be. I’m not where i wanna be, but I’m right where I’m suppose to be, for this moment. Doesn’t mean that I am to stay here much longer. I have to move forward. Yes, I am going to pray and ask God, my request. Then, I will leave it up to him to do the work however he pleases. I will praise him all this week… It’s going to be done.
To whoever is reading this blog, I want you to know that there is hope. Whatever challenge you may be facing right now, it’s only for a season. A time will come, when you will gain the victory over that thing. But for now, pray and leave it up to God to work it out, how he wants to work out, in his timing. Praise him for it, look for it, and think positive thoughts, always!
May God bless you as you journey through this week.