Confession: Have you ever felt like God is trying to bless you, but someone or something is standing in your path way, hindering you from receiving your blessing? Have you ever felt like someone or something is holding you back from success, simply because you are letting them, and you don’t know how to stop letting them? It’s a mental issue. And it’s one that struggle with.

I know, I know, what a mouth load. What a way to begin a blog, with mind boggling questions like those? But seriously, have you ever felt that way before? Am I the only one? I ask this, because sometimes we go through challenging situations in life, and it seems as if we are the only one in the world… no, scratch that! The universe… going through that particular thing. Reality is, we are not. And we know that, but in that moment, we can’t help but feel that way.

All through out my childhood, I struggled socially. I always felt that I was invisible. Funny thing is, I still struggle in that area today, and not in large public settings, but in small-intimate settings. I’m talking about public settings, where I’m familiar with the people surrounding me. For the most part, they know me and I know them. Actually, let me re-phrase that. They know of me and I know of them.  I say this, because if they really knew me… They’d know that I feel invisible, every single day I’m in that setting. They’d know that this challenge has brought me so low, in the past, that I no longer saw a point in… living? Well, let’s just say I was pretty damn depressed.

Have you ever prayed a prayer, and just when it seems like things are improving… things rapidly go downhill? It’s like.. ‘Lord, I thought your were finally coming through for me, after all this time of praying and studying your word and all of a sudden… nothing.’ I mean, it seemed as if something was happening, but then nothing. I don’t know if that makes any sense, but this whole situation I’m in, makes no sense to me at all.

How long must I remain trapped? How long must someone else come along at take what I thought was mine? I mean, I prayed, it seemed like things the wheels were turning in the direction I was hoping it would go, so I assumed it was confirmation that it’s in God’s will. But then, someone else came out of nowhere and claimed it for themselves. Thing is.. it always plays out that way. Why?

Dear reader, I apologize for this ramble of mine. However, I am getting to the point of this post.

If you ever feel this way about anything, I want you to think about this right here:

God is testing your faith. Do you believe he can answer your prayers?  Do you believe that he can and will come through for you like he said he would? It’s already done. I don’t care what your situation looks like right now, this is not the end. There is hope.

I’ve just shared with you how I feel. I feel as if I’m stuck in an endless, impossible, never-ending situation. Hopelessness. Yet, there is something inside of me that won’t let me give up completely. Yes, I am going to take a step back and see what happens in the future, but I know that things will work out for my good. As much as I’d like to run away and forget the people and situations causing me this hurt and emotional pain… I must stay. I mean, besides the fact that I have no financial stability to just pack up and leave,  I don’t want to. Cause despite all this mess, deep down I know that God is going to come through for me like he said  he would. And all these stumbling blocks that just don’t seem to dissipate won’t be able to hold back my blessing much longer. I have the victory over this in Jesus name.

Another thing I learned is, there are people who may be placed in your life, just for a season. And it can seem like it’s a very long season, because God is using that person to cause conflict in your life. And sometimes, that person may not even be doing it purposefully. They can be as innocent as they wanna be, but can still be messing things up in your life. So it seems. But don’t look at it that way. Look at it this way: God is using them to help shape you and make you into the person he desires for you to become. He is also preparing you for your blessing. He won’t just give you something that you can’t handle.. I mean, sometimes he will, just to show you that you aren’t ready for that blessing yet. Nonetheless, God knows what is best for each of us. And, we must continue to trust he divine plan for our lives. Through the rain and through the storm. Through the fire and through the struggle… This too shall pass, after while.

Psalms 30 says,  I will extol thee, O Lord; for thou hast lifted me up, and hast not made my foes to rejoice over me.

2. O Lord my God, I cried unto thee, and thou hast healed me.

3. O Lord, thou hast brought up my soul from the grave: thou hast kept me alive, that I should not go down to the pit.

4. Sing unto the Lord, O ye saints of his, and give thanks at the remembrance of his holiness.

5. For his anger endureth but a moment; in his favour is life: weeping may endure for a night, but joy cometh in the morning.

6. And in my prosperity I said, I shall never be moved.

7. Lord, by thy favour thou hast made my mountain to stand strong: thou didst hide thy face, and I was troubled.

8. I cried to thee, O Lord; and unto the Lord I made supplication.

9. What profit is there in my blood, when I go down to the pit? Shall the dust praise thee? shall it declare thy truth?

10. Hear, O Lord, and have mercy upon me: Lord, be thou my helper.

11. Thou hast turned for me my mourning into dancing: thou hast put off my sackcloth, and girded me with gladness;

12. To the end that my glory may sing praise to thee, and not be silent. O Lord my God, I will give thanks unto thee for ever.

So keep your head up, no matter what your going through. And remember, this too shall pass. God really does hear and answer prayers.



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